Disclaimer! it is a personal life post, not a technical one, so can be skipped.
It’s been a long almost 4 years in Sweden. Interesting experience to live so long outside a homeland. Part of this time was great, another is a big sad story which still continues. Move on, it’s time to change things, tell I to myself…
Despite that I should say I like this country for its calmness and simplicity. I really recommend to try it out everyone if you tired of big cities or are looking for social advantages for your children. it’s kinda cool when you can get all your teeth treated for free until you’re 23 and have a big discount after it anyway. So medicine is not so expensive and any person can get it for a reasonable price.
With that being said I did not use medical care much for the time being, due to various reasons. But I know a lot of people who did and they liked it.
The nature is beautiful here wherever you go. Stockholm is really nice. Skansen is just perfect. Many small towns and villages are some special places where you can spend whole day walking around and having a dinner at the end. I like it at night. Some tell it is sad staying in Stockholm in winter but no, I disagree it is not sad. You just need to have a good company and you can always find a nice place to chill.
I want it to be short so back to my sad story. I fell in love here in Sweden with what seemed to me then to be a special person, funny, amusing, sociable and interesting. We were just friends, but I did cross that line and she answered. We were spending a lot of time with each other and seemed to enjoy every moment. But without going into details, in the end, the person I loved, as it turned out, always saw me as just a backup option.
You probably wonder how it feels to have a loved one lying to you, every day, every week, month, and ultimately, year. I felt it. I felt it face to face, in text messages and just in actions. The person you catch lying begins to defend himself and transfer the problem to you, and that’s when you realize that you don’t matter.
Unfortunately, I was stupid to not stop this at first week because all what happened broke me. Ah, I would spend all money I have to just back in time and not step into this.
I wouldn’t say that I was a sociable person and a lot bad things happened; perhaps I became a misanthrope quite a long time ago. But such events continue to leave imprints on the soul and the Song of the day is the Epidemia - Всадник из льда (in Russian) or video Wrath of the Lich King Cinematic Trailer (to be honset in russian it sounds better). This taught me something, I don’t know what yet.
What I know I want to change absolutely everything, I had plans…, I should have new ones. I decided to go back to Russia and hope to get back in time where I was happy at least every other day.
Yeah, I know, I hear from my colleagues and friends that it is dangerous we are at the war but come on, there is always a chance that brick fall on your head wherever you are. What’s better be happy or be alive but unhappy? I think the former.
I already started preparations to leave the country, although a lot of things still need to be handled and the main thing is a selling furniture and getting out of a rented apartment. Oh, and another thing I changed the job in the end of previous year and I like it in a special way I’m used to.
The future is promising that I will be more in a condition of writing something new and technical for this website.